On Friendship

Friendship is a funny thing.  I've never been one of those people that is dying to have tons of friends.  Most weekends, I'd actually prefer to stay in by myself.  Once in a blue moon, I go stir-crazy and need a night out with people, and then I'm good again.  Maybe I'm an introvert.
I miss my high school friends.  To be honest, I've only kept in contact with a couple of them.  I wish now that I'd tried harder to stay in touch.  I love hearing from other people how they are doing, and I love hearing about their successes; buying houses, graduating college, getting married.  All of us have had our hard times too.  Death, divorce, health problems... you name it.
One friend, I tried extra hard to stay in contact with.  But sometimes, someone just doesn't have any interest in being your friend.  That hurts.  I've never had that experience before and it made my heart feel sad.  Ha ha.  But really.
I've met new friends too.  Friends at work and stuff.  I've gotten closer with friends that I knew in high school, and I'm so glad for that.  I've made friends with some of  Cord's friends' wives, and I am glad I have.  I hope I can become better friends with them.
  I've also become better "friends" with my family, and with Cord's.  There seems to be an unwritten law that unless you are a Golden Child, you just can't be friends with your parents or your siblings while you are a teenager.  But now, some of those friendships are the most rewarding I have.  Also, I happen to be married to my best friend.  He is the best daddy, husband, and friend I know.  And man is he a good example of friendship.  He would do anything for his friends.  He loves those boys like they are his brothers.  No one can make me laugh like he can, and I can definitely be my complete self around him.
My point is, if you are one of those old friends, I miss you!  And even though we may not talk much anymore, if you are reading this, know that I think about you still! 

Character in Solitude

"Our character is best revealed not in the the public eye, but in private. What we do when nobody is looking is the truest mark of our character. And those who display character in the dark will always reflect it in the light."

I love this.  I got in from a cool article called 20 New Ways to Judge Others.  How true is this?  Such a good reminder.  There are so many people nowadays that just put on a show and are fake.  I'm not a huge fan of fake people.

Be yourself!  And make yourself a decent person, to the core.

For example, me telling Harley she is dumb when no one is around because she puked in her cage for the millionth time that week makes me a lam-o.

Lesson learned.

Letting Go

So, I'm a little late with the whole New Years resolution thing, but better late than never right?  This year, it's deep.  For realsies.  It's letting go of the unhealthy.  Unhealthy food (not so much chocolate, and not nearly so much caffeine).  Don't ask me how I will do this, because caffeine+sleep deprived parenthood=the only way to success I know.  But I KNOW it's best for me.  Unhealthy habits.  I have plenty of these.  Mostly sleeping in.  I can trick Aria into sleeping til 11, which is great, but then we aren't so productive...  Unhealthy tv shows.  Because let's be honest, there are many of them.  Too bad so many of my favorite shows have blatant, casual sex.  Because guess what?  They would be really funny WITHOUT all that.  Whatever, world.  Unhealthy stress.  I worry WAY too much about WAY too many things.  Life's too short to be spending it with things and people and habits that stress you out!  Amen.

PS Baby Aria stresses me out more than anything. ("oh crap, she coughed, it must be pertussis!")  But she is a good stress.  The very best.

PPS I secretly want to be a minimalist.